Even though I can’t get close, it doesn’t mean never wanted to. I miss you.
So much time has passed and I’m still trying to figure out what to do. Sigh.
…But you have to make it hard.
…It got something to do with…
What can you do but just keep getting up when they knock you down…
Roller coaster week here. From having so much anger to swallowing my pride, damage control regarding a friendship, and still trying to pursue a girl that I can’t have. Sounds like a typical week for me.
I suppose I need more productive activities that I need to pick up. There’s too many times that this lonely loner seems to free his mind at night. I’m constantly thinking about relationships lately, and it’s driving me crazy. I wish summer would hurry up and get here so that I would have long happy sunny days and short warm nights.
You see that button right there? That’s the one I’m pressing. Not the pinkie, not the index, not the ring but the middle. The bird, and I’m flipping it at you…you and you and you. You don’t think I have what it takes? You don’t think I got it? I’m pressing it again. To you. For you. Go ahead and knock me down again but I’ll keep getting up, and again. I see that you’re stamina is waning and I’m far from over. Oh and the thumb? I didn’t forget that. That’s up your ass bitch. None of you deserve me, now watch me blow up.
Sometimes, to get over things you just need to get laid. It’s plain and simple as that. Your mind is no longer clouded with thought, and you can have the glow just beam confidence from your crotch.
Que the Hall & Oates track ala 500 Days of Summer.
Chuck Klosterman was right to blame John Cusack in his book, “Sex, Drugs and Cocoa Puffs”. His portrayal in pop culture has made it almost impossible to change the view of how dating should be. And expressing your feelings to your best friend only works in the movies. I’ve seen this…I have done this…you do not want this.
I’m going to hate this period because I’ve been found out. Awkwardness will most likely occur. Sypmtoms include:
Awkward place, like Auckland New Zealand.
As uncomfortable as this may seem, feeling like a teenager again is very liberating.
Friend zone. What to do…
The year has come to a close, and so much has happened so quickly. I came up in my position with a very nice paying and enjoyable gig in online media, met lots of friends and saw so many amazing shows. This has been the best summer that I have had so far, and I can only begin to imagine what this summer will have in store.
I keep looking at my phone…this is bad.
The holidays are sweeter this year, and family is a bit closer. I’m happy for what I have.
2010 is coming to a close, and I’m reflecting on all of the wonderful times that I had this year. It has been an amazing year to say the least.
I’m going through some really heavy shit right now, and optimism sounds like an out of the box theory that is not very popular with the general public. There isn’t any room to run and facing issues like the ones I’m experiencing can no longer be ignored. I’ve been through the cycle before, its just more daunting than ever this time around. Shaking my current disposition will be very challenging, but there’s nothing else left that I can do but to accept what is coming.